Stupid Girl Trying to Write, Should Somebody Read It?

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Ikenai Taiyou, na na na na na na na na na ....   -Orange Range

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How its hurt, anyone? 

I need anyone could explain it, how its hurt, how I feel that so far, how the way I forget it, it came sooo bunch crush my head, NO! I let it goes, I'd love to think desperate things just by now, and feel happy about it, I laughed so much tonight, deriding myself becauce I've cried before, HAHA! I'm always using the tears for anything, and thats just ONE reason made me weak, and I'm weak, just because I have the tears, and over proud to have it so that I used it everytime to show that I'm glad, touched, and hurt, and problably more than it.

...and what I feel tonight? 

I'm not break-up with anyone, I'm not in a relationship, and if I was, I dont even cry, or problably sad, felt I'm fail, eh No! feel I'm lost the one, hahaha, No! I've never feel lost besides my brotha and my dad, so, yeah! I've ever feel the thing named break-up (I'm not really understand), and its not totally bad, at least I know he wasnt my fate, and I would happy with somebody else, hahaha, can you imagine how freak I am?

Hahaha, it's not about relationship, you know, I'm looking for the one that last, eh! sorry wrong again, now I'm just so happy being alone, mazely-single girl, and I'm not looking for. 

How's my feel actually??

HURT? not really, HAPPY? not at all, COMMON? I guess not, 

PATHETIC? Yeah! It was right.

The reason tonight also being the top of the most suffer nights is I am, ok watch this accurate, I am, yeah! I am... Failed again in UJIAN MASUK BERSAMA. and you know how its feel? DARK, I cant explain but i did cry, but then I'm laughed, I tried to make fun myself, but yeah, it's too much suffering, and now I dont even care of it! YEAH!

Should I think I still have any chances? stupid girls are always thinking the chances, and I'm a stupid girl everybody known, and I... do thinking I still have any chances,  even I'm still dreaming about Harvard University one day, and I wonder that I was born to dream anything without having the chance to reach it, do I?

If is it true, I'm also proud of it. 

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Quote today.

Bahkan ketika kamu merasa sangat tolol menjadi nyawa yang berada dalam tubuhmu, memiliki otak seperti otakmu, menjalani hidup seperti yang setiap hari kau lakukan, percayalah bahwa disana tak ada nyawa-nyawa lain yang seperti dirimu, otak-otak lain seperti otakmu, hidup-hidup lain seperti hidupmu, maka tetaplah bangga menjadi dirimu sendiri dan memimpikan semua hal yang kau inginkan.

Stay different :)

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 Avril Lavigne-I'm With You

 I'm standing on the bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound

Isn't anyone tryin’ to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?

(Chorus)
It's a damn cold night!
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you

(Mmm..)

I'm looking for a place
I'm searching for a face
Is anybody here I know?
'Cause nothing's going right
And everything’s a mess
And no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone tryin’ to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?

(CHORUS)

Oh!

Why is everything so confusing?
Maybe I'm just out of my mind
Yeah.. yeah.. yeah!..yeah.. yeah,
yeah.. yeah, yeah yeah,YEAH...
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I....!
I'm with YOU...
I'm with YOU...
Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I!

I'm with you...
I'm with you...

Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I
I'm with you
I'm with you

I'm with you...

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The last thing, just, sweet dreams everyone, enjoy your life :)