If she could possibly turn the time back, She has ever been in the lowest point in relationship where all she wanted to do is to kick you out from her life, She has ever ever been the one who regret things, but still woke up and realized how she wanted to be with you, she has ever closed her ears to what people say when she was doing things for you, she went through hard patch just when she felt it would be good to have a better life with you and helping you paying the bills, she ever really wanted to give up but she woke up realizing how far she has fought her brain out just to let her heart feels better when she was beside you.
She has no idea of you trying to get some spot to make her dreams fall out by the time she believed it was when she fell in love the most with you, she didn't realize you were the one who feel not enough with this after she (believe she was) sacrificed all things just to be with you, she just didn't realize it when you were too busy trying to kick her out just to feel enough about yourself, never.
She appreciated all your efforts and texted you to make sure you didn't skip your breakfast and warned you to pray and hold Allah closer, she never missed to know about your day even when she tired about her own life, you weren't always treat her good but you were still the one she talked a lot with her friends, she talked all good things about you.
.....and by the time she dreamed of you to come back,
but never actually has space for you when you really did, she still care a lot about you, but her feelings is not what the matter the most right now, she wants the one who stayed no matter hard the day is, she wants the one who appreciate her and love her the way she is, she wants the one who treat her better and tell her everything he wants and never hide anything just to make her simply hurting, and anything else.
The rest is, she is trying to believe there will be the real person who can be matched with all her weirdness, insecure-thing, and all of the imperfections.
she used to be the one who want to make you happy,
but now she just trying to feel good about herself and feeling even better,
"For me Shah Rukh Khan is like a God. He is kind and will always take care about the problems of his friends. He is a person who is very easy to discuss and talk with. He likes to help people. For me he is a very special human being." -Kajol (source)
Totally agreed with Kajol about this, about this badash bollywood or King Khan has a really special thing that rare as a normal human being and I just suprised how much I still love him, from the very first time I know how to be a fan, how to know about an idol, and artist, and yeah, you know what I mean.
Oke, akan saya ceritakan sedikit awal saya 'kenal' sama tokoh satu ini (Shahrukh Khan itu seperti tokoh, bukan hanya seleb--bagi saya).
KUCH KUCH HOTA HAI, dimana sejak peluncurannya menjadi film india tersukses di Asia Tenggara atau bahkan dunia saat itu, adalah film india pertama yang saya tonton--bahkan jika saya tidak salah mengingat, KKHH ini adalah film layar lebar pertama yang saya tonton, saat itu di tahun 1999 (kalo tidak salah) ketika sedang menyiapkan resepsi pernikahan sepupu di Lhokseumawe, ada beberapa orang saudara yang berkumpul di ruang tv dan menonton film ini yang diputar di DVD player, dan saya ikut-ikutan :D saat itu mungkin saya belum genap berusia enam tahun, jadi jalan ceritanya saja saya belum jelas mengerti, yang saya masih ingat adalah, orang-orang menangis menonton film ini. Setelah kembali ke rumah di Banda Aceh, saya ingat sekali semua orang sering mendiskusikan film ini, dan saya masih sering menontonnya dengan teman-teman sepermainan, meskipun yang kami sukai hanya scene-scene menari dan menyanyinya (Yang sekarang paling sering saya skip kalo nonton film india di laptop :D) Anyway, saya nulis ini juga mungkin karena pengaruh KKHH yang saya tonton lagi malam senin kemaren karena lagi sedih plus frustasi dan pengen banget yang drama-drama, my choice is still the same, KUCH KUCH HOTA HAI, maybe after hundreds of time.
Beberapa tahun kemudian, muncul film India baru yang sering diperbincangkan teman-teman saya (tentu saja mengenai tarian dan nyanyiannya, oleh anak-anak kecil saat itu), Kabhi Kushi Kabhi Gham, dimana Shahrukh kembali dipertemukan dengan Kajol, dan ada Rani Mukherji juga walaupun bukan pemeran utama, nggak tau kenapa, K3G tidak seperti KKHH.
Semua film India yang saya tonton setelah itu, tidak ada yang bisa mengalahkan 'ikatan' saya dengan KKHH, boleh saya sedikit lebay? Twilight dan sekuel-sekuelnya, 500 Days Of Summer, A Walk To Remember, Harry Potter, Titanic, seabrek film-film dari negara manapun yang sudah saya tonton tidak pernah menampilkan sesuatu yang serius yang saya dapatkan di film KKHH, okay, think I need serious help? Please do.
Sebegitu ngefansnya sama KKHH, aku dulu sempet stalking Sana Saeed di tahun 2011 di twitter yang aku kira adalah Sana Saeed di KKHH (little Anjali) yang sebenernya salah orang, abis penasaran aja gimana penampilan Sana setelah di KKHH, and then I wacthed "Student Of The Year" film produksi Karan Johar juga and see Sana Saeed as Tanya Israni (pangling banget sumpah, aku kira mungkin dia ga akan terima tantangan buat ambil peran semi-antagonis kayak gitu setelah image bagus dari KKHH, selain di film, Sana ini juga studi ekonomi di Inggris, news proof that he was a smart person), berbicara soal stalking, Sana Saeed yang aku stalk empat tahun lalu yang sempet ngebalas mention aku dengan "Nope, wrong Sana Saeed" adalah jurnalis dari Timur Tengah yang sampe sekarang aku gatau dia siapa hahaha :)) Mungkin saat ini udah seabrek film bollywood yang jauh lebih keren dibandingin sama Kuch Kuch Hota Hai, but, first love is forever a thing, right? :D
Saya memang bukan bollywood addict, sebegitu parahnya saya ngefans sama SRK, saya nggak nonton semua filmnya yang berjumlah 80 (atau bahkan lebih) itu, mungkin saya hanya suka dua film dari SRK, yaitu KKHH dan My Name is Khan (2010), ada sesuatu yang lain yang bikin saya pengen banget jumpa sama orang satu ini, really? Now it sounds disgusting enough?
Yang saya dapat dari berita dan wawancara, berpuluh-puluh video tentangnya yang saya lihat di youtube, saya akhirnya berani menyimpulkan hal ini:
He knows what he wants in life, he work hard, work smart, and get what he wants, and because I have an opposite thing with this, this one is the most thing I love when I could see it in people, and he has it.
He fulfil his dreams, his dedication in film/entertaiment industry leaves two thumbs up!
He has good sense of humour
He reads, a lot, his bestfriend Kajol and his wife Gauri said the most of time that SRK can't be separated with books, no wonder why he got that smart then?
He is a well educated person, he studied till he got mastered, and in economics, why I'd be proud so much to be part of economics student then HAHAHA
He loves children, he stays close with his kids and he once said he had a dream to make movies that he heads for children.
He can be friend for everyone, at least, coba liat pujian yang sering dilontarkan Kajol dan Karan Johar untuknya.
A warm personality, I'll show you then.
He is a very loyal husband, and the most caring and loving daddy to Aryan, Suhana, and Abram, lately I know why he sent Aryan far to England for a study is because he kept aryan from his famous shadow of his dad, biar anaknya bisa menemukan jati dirinya dengan baik.
He cares a lot of family, takes care to his elder sister, shahnaz lalarukh, yang menurut kabar mengalami depresi setelah ibunya meninggal, kini shahnaz tinggal bersama di rumah keluarga Khan yang dinamakan Mannat, bersama istri dan anak-anaknya.
Entah mengapa, menurutku, nggak ada artis dengan jiwa sosial sebesar dia, sumbangannya untuk listrik-listrik di desa, dan kebanyakan adalah sumbangan untuk anak-anak.
Walaupun menikah dengan seorang hindu dan bertekad menanamkan dua agama pada anak-anaknya (yang aku juga kurang setuju tapi ya itu hidup dia), dia sering mengatakan jika melakukan sesuatu itu karena agamanya, and dont mention how much he said "InshaaAllah" in every chances in interview, at least yeah, he has faith.
Dia nggak pernah terpacu untuk membuat film menjadi box office, ia hanya berusaha tampil maksimal untuk setiap film dan biarkan pasar dan kritikus yang menentukan.
Dan tentu saja, sebagai manusia dengan banyak kelebihan, ada saja kekurangan-kekurangan yang dimilikinya, perseteruan dengan sesama artis, rumor perselingkuhan, dan banyak lagi, but as long as I concern, dia adalah aktor paling adorable dan satu-satunya aktor yang saking ngefansnya, pernah aku mimpiin...
Yaah, dulu sih, waktu kecil. Hahahaha (Skip this because you know, yuck!)
Okay, if there's a thing I hate about SRK it must be his role in Jab Tak Hai Jaan, dont mention the reason, you know what I mean, right?
Ini adalah wawancaranya dengan Dewi Sandra dan Indra Safera tahun 2002 sejak kedatangan pertamanya ke Indonesia buat konser, he is smart and a real down to earth person, check this out...
Satu hal lagi yang bikin aku yakin banget dia orangnya begitu down to earth adalah, dia sering buka pertanyaan gitu di twitter dan dia bales satu-satu mention fansnya, akunya udah nyoba dua kali tapi belum beruntung hahaha. Fyi, twitternya: @iamsrk
Too much, no? Walopun nggak tau banyak soal bollywood, tapi berbicara soal keterikatan dengan film lawas Kuch Kuch Hota Hai yang bikin pengen tau banget sampe ngefans sama SRK, I wanna say, yes, I'm a huge fan of SRK.
dan ini ada bonus fotonya yang aku yakin bisa mewakili semua gambaranku soal SRK yang sayang keluarga:
Above: Aryan, SRK, Suhana
Below: Shahnaz Lalarukh, Gauri Khan
:))
P.S: I'm going mad, and it was so early morning now in Indonesia, it's saturday, august 8 2015, 02:45 a.m
