If she could possibly turn the time back, She has ever been in the lowest point in relationship where all she wanted to do is to kick you out from her life, She has ever ever been the one who regret things, but still woke up and realized how she wanted to be with you, she has ever closed her ears to what people say when she was doing things for you, she went through hard patch just when she felt it would be good to have a better life with you and helping you paying the bills, she ever really wanted to give up but she woke up realizing how far she has fought her brain out just to let her heart feels better when she was beside you.
She has no idea of you trying to get some spot to make her dreams fall out by the time she believed it was when she fell in love the most with you, she didn't realize you were the one who feel not enough with this after she (believe she was) sacrificed all things just to be with you, she just didn't realize it when you were too busy trying to kick her out just to feel enough about yourself, never.
She appreciated all your efforts and texted you to make sure you didn't skip your breakfast and warned you to pray and hold Allah closer, she never missed to know about your day even when she tired about her own life, you weren't always treat her good but you were still the one she talked a lot with her friends, she talked all good things about you.
.....and by the time she dreamed of you to come back,
but never actually has space for you when you really did, she still care a lot about you, but her feelings is not what the matter the most right now, she wants the one who stayed no matter hard the day is, she wants the one who appreciate her and love her the way she is, she wants the one who treat her better and tell her everything he wants and never hide anything just to make her simply hurting, and anything else.
The rest is, she is trying to believe there will be the real person who can be matched with all her weirdness, insecure-thing, and all of the imperfections.
she used to be the one who want to make you happy,
but now she just trying to feel good about herself and feeling even better,
without you.
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