“Everything hurts and no one is telling me how to heal

I mediate with rose squartz resting in my palms

I eat more bananas

I make a spell with bat’s wings and dandelion water

Something has to work,

But I am waiting, at the end of my rope,

Braiding my hair into broken,

Twisted cups of thread,

In a desperate way of begging the universe to put me somewhere safe”

-Schuyler Peck

“I need you to be monster

Which is to say, I am trying not to love you

Which is to say, I am still dreaming of kissing your claws”

-Fortessa Latifi

“I said to the sun, ‘Tell me about the big bang’.

The sun said, ‘it hurts to become’”

-Andrea Gibson

“I wonder if I will remember this as the winter where everyone died but  wasn’t overcome with sadness”

-Chrissy Stockton

“It is a Tuesday when I love someone who doesn’t love me,

No, it’s not the first time

But it’s a sad time, oh, it’s always a sad time

But my heart doesn’t listen, doesn’t understand,

Soars like a child in a rocket ship,

Doesnt’ believe in gravity, doesn’t believe in learning a lesson,

Wants to give until there is nothing left but glitter”

-Yena Sharma Purmasir

“To love me is to love a haunted house

-it’s fun to visit once a year,

But no one wants to live there”

-Brenna Twohy

“When it rains I know you are looking at the same rain,

I have to believe it means something different to you than it does to me”

-Jones Howell

“The truth is,

Some pain just isn’t worth it.

Sometimes, the hurt gets old

Sometimes, you get tired of being the one who has to heal”

-Caitlyn Siehl

“I love you head over handles,

Like my first bicycle accident

--before the mouthful of gravel and blood,

I swore we were flying”

-Sierra DeMulder

“It’s been three years since I’ve spent the night with someone who liked me enough to get breakfast in the morning.

Still, I spread my heart  thin like butter on toast, hoping someone else will come along and snatch it off my plate”

-Trista Mateer

“I care

Like it is an alternative to breathing and every available ounce of oxygen has suddenly gone missing”

-Danielle Shorr

Credits: thoughtcatalog.com

and I've been so caught in my job didn't see what's going on

It takes long time to post the song in blog, it's really feels cheesy but I love this one.

Own less. Create more.

Buy less. Share more.
Work less. Play more.

Less media gazing. More sky gazing.
Less cellphone time. More reading time.
Less noise. More silence.

Less impulsive shopping. More frugal consuming.
Less wanting. More gratitude.
Less needing. More contentment.

Explain less. Act more.
Stress less. Laugh more.
Think less. Feel more.

Less promises. More surprises.
Less performances. More inquiries.
Less concepts. More experiments.

Answer less. Question more.
Comply less. Question more.
Believe less. Question more.

Less known. More unknown.
Less handed-down beliefs. More self-discoveries.
Less fixation. More freedom.

Talk less. Listen more.
Analyze less. Experience more.
Judge less. Observe more.

Less concrete. More soil.
Less tabloids. More trees.
Less smoking sections. More fresh air.

Criticize less. Appreciate more.
Object less. Understand more.
Exclude less. Include more.

Less knowledgeable. More innocence.
Less target. More acceptance.
Less doing something. More doing nothing.

Attach less. Release more.
Ignore less. Meditate more.
Fear less. Breathe more.

Less addiction. More awareness.
Less norms. More conscience.
Less mindless. More mindfulness.

got this from the forever inspiring mbak dee lestari.

INSECURITIES

How to make it?

That is the first possible question in my head after hearing a friend told me he has registried me to an english debate competition, how could he believe so much to me while I don't have a bit trust to myself, and yes, I was cracking by that question a whole day today.

Deep inside, I really want to take it and prove to myself that I at least have an ability to be proud of, or at least to prove the emvironment that never fail to get me down by underestimated me the whole time that I at least have something to focus in life, (put so many at least, because yeah, least it is), I think I have never been good in english just in case to speak about a debate competition area, A DEBATE COMPETITION it is, imagine what I have to say.

It's not one or two times I figured out about this less confident issue, the research said that maybe I don't really love myself, thing is, no, I really love myself that I afraid to just taking challenge (and sounds like excuse, or funny), how if I just embarrasing myself by taking this? How to speak in front of audience watching? How if I forgot one or two important words? Why if...

Why if I can't make it perfect?

No, don't call me perfectionist, I was, but not anymore, I don't take chance that I think I'm not capable with just because I don't want to ended up dissapointing them whom support me, I sweat ever small stuffs in working, I am overthinking, that's why I mess up, and end up regret thinking if I could take care for some little things maybe this could going perfectly as planned.

I don't really enjoy being in the process of working, I can easily being distracted or bored, for instance, in this semester I really stoked to find a thesis title and hope to finish my thesis in the next semester, I got three times being refused by my lab lecturer, and still stoked, and then I got another 'job' as a ticket seller for an english seminar, and then getting distracted, I felt how it's hard to find the title and think why I was being in a hurry while my friends still enjoy being around a normal 6th semester student (undergradute education in Indonesia take 4 years long/8th semester for graduation), after the seminar passed, almost two weeks ago, I've just had two days for being stoke again about the title, but not really, I am actually excited by a week holiday after the middle exam (not a campus-off, I just wanna come home and taking a week off :D), so, I doubt myself a lot about the competition, while inside, I feel like I can do this, like I have to take this chance.

INSECURITIES, has been a friend of mine for a whole lifetime, and I don't know how to fix it, been searching for tips or research or literature, but it was so easy to read so hard to do, this post is only a reminder if maybe I would read again 20 years later (HAHAHAHAHA) and some tips I could give to myself is here, nope, don't want to advise anyone here, this is for me, I'm not good at fixing insecurities why am I needing to advise anyone :D

• Don't take it seriously, you know, people mocking, they do everything they wanted to do, and so do you, find another thing to focus and enjoy life, 
• Solitude is good, it is always good, imagine the waves dancing in the beach, or soft rain (also in beach), when the horizon turns out grey and the wind blows your hair, and there is your favorite music, you're alone, imagine 4-5 years later, or recall your memory, and do it, take your me-time somewhere.
• Imagine what possible to do in your future is good, but don't hit the stars, it's suck, learn from your past.
• You can do it, learn how people make it, learn how not to be distracted, to concentrate on your work, learn how to appreciate every responsible that has given to you,  less-torturing your self by thinking it has to always be perfect in the end, because no matter how it will end, do it as hard as you can, because good effort never dissapointed.
• TAKE THIS CHANCE, self, it's better to end up losing than never be on it at all.
• Maybe there is also so many people that has limitation just like you do, you're never that smart, never that great, imagine they are in the same competition as you, so your rival is also has the same kind of ability as you, so yeah.

And hahaha this is rude, but do it, self, don't be dissapointed anymore (:

Kala

Making a way down town

Wlking fast, faces passed and I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead just making my way, making a way

through the crowd

and I need you, and I miss you

and now I wonder

If I could fall into the sky

Do you think time would pass me by

Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles

If I could just see you

Tonight

It's always time like this when I think of you

and I wonder if you ever think of me

Cause everything is so wrong and I don't belong

Living in your precious memory....

A Thousand Miles (Vanessa Carlton)

Terakhir suka banget ngerepeat lagu ini tuh akhir tahun lalu, parah banget sampe pernah berdiri dan melamun lama di pintu belakang sambil mandangin langit, dengan earphone mutarin lagu ini, sekarang atau tahun lalu, feelnya masih sama, ngambang, aku nggak yakin aku lagi dimana sekarang, harus ngapain dan prioritasin apa, tahun lalu ketika ninggalin Banda Aceh masih satu tahun setengah, ataupun sekarang udah dua tahun setengah, masih sama aja, masih pengen banget pulang.

*****

Ada rasa kangen pengen kayak dulu lagi, ngulang ke masa-masa masih SMA, jaman-jamannya masih sering mellow, sukanya stargazing, jaman masih punya penyakit susah tidur jadi nggak tidur semaleman cuman buat nulis berlembar-lembar atau gunting-gunting kertas buat tulisin quote, resep, potongan lirik lagu, segala macem dan tempelin di satu sisi kamar yang aku jadiin kayak mading, masih suka-sukanya sama twilight dan edward cullen -______- jaman masih pake komputer tua yang udah pensiun sekarang dan nggak sempet-sempet aku repair :D jaman masih sering ngerepeat Shape Of My Heart-nya BSB atau ngafalin semua lagu dalam album Fearless-nya Taylor Swift, yes, I was there, I was too weird but I'd like to be that once again, dulu itu, walaupun suka gabung-gabung di organisasi dan ikut jadi panitia dalam banyak acara, sosialisasi aku tu payah banget, padahal kalo kata orang-orang belakangan ini, aku yang sekarang udah nggak seceria dulu, kemana-mana banyakan diem, dulu heboh, apalagi kalo diajak ngomong soal twilight, siap banget dari pagi sampe malam, dan kalo diingat malu banget sekarang :'D

I was there, dan rasanya pengen minjem mesin waktu dan balik lagi kesana, yang beban-beban hidupnya masih kayak takut dimarahin ayah kalo pulang diatas jam enam sore, soal tugas sekolah, soal berantem-berantem kecil sama temen, tapi aku nyesel karena waktu itu masih juga overthinking sama segala hal dan sering banget ngerasa nggak guna dan segala hal yang bikin aku down sampe sering stres sendiri, kalo dipikir sekarang, seharusnya, dulu bisa nikmatin semuanya dan buang semua pikiran-pikiran bodoh itu.

Sekarang udah empat-lima tahun udah nggak seperti itu lagi, lucunya, semua berubah drastis, drastis banget, aku sering merasa ngambang, nggak tau sekarang tinggal dimana dan lagi ngerjain apa, sering ngerasa banyak yang sia-sia, tapi, selalu nggak mau menyesal lagi dan berusaha ngerjain segala sesuatunya sebaik mungkin semampu aku, tapi ya tetap aja, banyak banget yang bikin sesak, dan bikin pengen ngulang lagi kayak dulu, tapi gimanapun mungkin ini hanya pikiran sesaat pas lagi down banget kayak gini, bedanya sekarang, udah agak (sedikit) dewasa dalam pandangan, jadi nyikapinnya juga, udah nggak mau buang waktu buat stres tapi fokus, slalu fokus dengan apa yang dikerjain, tapi tetap pengen nyisain waktu untuk curcol disini, tenangin diri :')

Words Can Do That

Still awake and just watched she's out of my league and I wanna note a list for myself.

1. Stay away from insecurities, people was born with their own ability, they are all different, thats not mean what you have isn't good enough there is still no measurement to prove what you have is not good enough.

2. Insecure may lead to the lowest self-esteem, when you under-estimated yourself, there's the centre of your very first problem in a list.

3. Don't compare yourself with others, even when she/he has the same age as yours but she/he has got everything you won't taste the lack of it, better you be ready to do what you can do, struggling for what you can invent that maybe will give a little help for environment, spread the ideas, know and recognize more and more

4. Put your trust in people and believe they will do exactly like you will gonna see, like they are also want a perfect result for things you both working together, when it's not, that's definetely not the end of the world.

5. You need to do a little bit effort for friendship, relationship, and some others those has -ships on it. Do not ever compare your relationship/friendship with other's may have in their life, God has known everything we exactly need so He putted those people in our lives not just for no reason, when you can't still found out, doesn't mean it doesn't exsist. 

6. Don't show your feelings to the world too much--tell your society everything, make you one of those kids who have that less attention issue. Because you're not, you still need to figure it out of how to be a little bit maturer when there's no one around to help you in your daily activities or even ask how's your day--anything.

7. Focus on journey, not targets, one you feel like the target is still somewhere far you will lose your attention to your journey and you will go to sleep instead with no one there will slap your face and scream: wake up!!

8. Don't josh people even just there in bottom of your head, let them do what they want to do, and focus only with your life, on what your working to, they experienced a lot of different things and you do to, in fact we learned what we have from past life and you learn what yours, be better everyday, laugh more, talk less--so don't have anything to regret, tell people what bothers you, don't keep it inside what might ruined your day, blend with the world and avoid to look as despicable human being, just walk, walk, and sometimes enjoy running fast step by step in your life.

9. Be grateful, when you're not, thats your second problem (on a list), feeling okay with yourself when you have less and be kind when you have more is the sort of happiness in the universe, being grateful will lead a person to be a true self, and be yourself, like your head ever discussed before, anything they may have on their life out there they still can't get what you really have inside of you. Being grateful will build a huge self-confidence, and you have proof it more than once in life, self confidence is a key to you to get closer, a step closer to your dreams.

10. You can do it! Not because people tell you you can do it, cause, in the bottom of your heart, the sources of all goodness, God tells, and He never lies, avoid overthinking, when you can't do more, do less, do what you can do, no matter what, keep doing, focus on your work, and believe that happy life depends on how happy you're with the journey, not how will happy you're one day blabla, cause, sadness is good sometimes, dont stick on it, keep yourself away from that sadness for more than an hour, and go blend with people.

Actually, it's a lot happen to me this week and today I (actually) feel so blissful, this is kind of my day, woke up in the morning and still worry about how to role the day well but I did it best as I could and finally get a high score for taxation quiz I took from PDITT Universitas Indonesia, and went home with a not so starving tummy but dont get to eat a lot, having fun with the most caring friends I've ever had, get some calls from family, than recently bring me to His beautiful saying in the holy Qur'an: Fabiayyia laa irabbikumaa tukadzzibaan :)

What You See Bad In Yourself is Actually Worth It

Reblog from Sonia Eryka's tumblr titled 25 Signs You Are The Kind of Woman The World is Scared of

1. You have a lot of opinions about a lot of things, and you just can’t keep them to yourself.

2. You mean what you say and say what you mean – none of that Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus nonsense.

3. You never back-down from an argument. You’re not always starting them but you sure as hell finish them when necessary.

4. You have really high standards for the people you choose to be around and you’re not afraid to leave behind those who cannot meet it.

5. You’ve got even higher standards for any person who wants to be with you, romantically.

6. You’d much rather fail at doing things your way than succeed while being a people-pleaser.

7. You do not tolerate drama but you also will stand up for yourself if the situation calls for it.

8. You love being in charge, taking control, and anything and everything that makes you feel powerful.

9. You’re called high maintenance for knowing what you like (and what you like happens to be of finer tastes.)

10. Coco Chanel, Maya Angelou, and Queen Victoria are your spirit animals.

11. You’ve always thought aspiring to be “like a man” is something people who lack ambition do.

12. You are not afraid to ask your boss for a raise because you want to be paid what you deserve.

13. When you want something, you go for it, unapologetically.

14. You are not afraid to “be alone” because that is 1000 times better than getting less than what you deserve.

15. In a relationship, you ask for what you need and you are willing to compromise some things, but not everything.

16. You make disloyal people regret their words and/or actions.

17. But you never take revenge, because you know the best revenge is success.

18. You also always forgive your enemies but like every sensible person, “you never forget their names.”

19. You don’t apologize for crying or not crying.

20. You relish your strengths and accept your weaknesses and consider self-growth an everyday endeavor.

21. You intimidate people with your confidence – not just men or women – people in general.

22. You are allergic to people’s bullshit and you do not hestitate to inform them of that.

23. You like to think of yourself as “not a lover or a fighter” but someone who will indeed, “fight for what and whom they love.”

24. You’re not afraid of being called difficult because you know it’s just a word society uses for women who aren’t afraid to challenge the status quo.

25. And you are always slightly overdressed for everything. 

— by Kovie Biakolo

Mindset

Logika yang terpenting untuk menjadi lebih baik adalah mengubah mindset yang lebih baik setiap harinya.

Tapi apa arti satu mindset kalo hidup dalam lingkungan yang mindsetnya udah terbentuk turun-temurun gak berubah ya gitu-gitu aja?

Apa arti 1% dibanding 99%?

Ah, sudahlah. Yang penting kalo sendirinya bisa baik, ya dilanjutin..

Kau Buat Aku Bertanya

Ketika kita percaya, dan menaruh kepercayaan

Tapi kita tidak butuh dia tau

Mendoakannya setiap lima waktu,

Tapi bahkan kita lupa sering menyebutnya dalam doa

Ketika dalam susah yang kita yakinkan adalah

Suatu hari kita akan bahagia bersamanya

Ketika yang kita inginkan hanyalah menjadi yang paling baik baginya

Ketika kita memutuskan untuk sakit dahulu

Hanya demi masa depan kita dengannya

Ketika dipagi hari, namanya ikut bangkit dalam kepala kita

Dan pikiran tentangnya mendominasi hari kita

Ketika yang kita sukai hanya mengingat saat kita dengannya

Yang menjadi hiburan tersendiri

Ketika dia menjadi sosok yang begitu sempurna di kala kita kebingungan

Ketika kesabarannya menginspirasi kita, untuk membuat tulisan ini.

Ketika hadirnya menjadi satu-satunya yang kita harapkan.

Untuk membunuh sepi kita, mendengarkan kita.

"Kau buat aku bertanya, kau buat aku mencari, tentang rasa ini, aku tak mengerti.

Akankah sama jadinya, bila bukan kamu?"

They named it love, I named it you.

Another Night

Ku buka diaryku, 

Kadang ingin menyinggungmu dengan sepatah dua patah kata

yang pernah ku tujukan kepadamu

Kadang hanya ingin mengulang,

masa-masa yang telah lalu

Kadang hanya ingin melihat wajahmu, 

Yang ku ukir manis dengan kata dibawahnya

Kadang aku ingin mengingat, 

Segala hal yang pernah kita lewati

Ku lewatkan beberapa lembar,

Karena tetesan itu mulai mengalir lagi,

Satu detik, dua detik, hingga kemudian deras

Menyapu keresahan di malam pekat mencekam

Seketika memori membawaku berkelana

Ketika itu, denganmu

Suatu sore ketika tanah basah, hujan baru saja turun

Kita berkeliling,

Mengitari seputara pemukiman

Aku tertawa, kau fokus, melaju dengan vespamu

Vespa hijau tua

Atau beberapa waktu dimana

Kau menunggu di luar gerbang sekolah

Dengan kemeja berkerah merah jambu.

Menjemputku pulang

Sering dimana kita menghabiskan siang di tempatmu mencarikan kami kehidupan

Terik, dengan langit berwarna biru muda, cerah

Teringat waktu kecil dulu,

Kau pulang membawa kue mini dengan gula-gula warna-warni

Atau seringkali mencarikan apapun untukku, dimanapun, segalanya.

Untukku.

Kau berwujud malaikat dengan tangan kasar,

Bekas kerja keras,

Simbol pantang menyerah,

Meski sering kalah

Lekuk bibirmu terkatup, 

Menyisakan tanda kau terlalu tertutup

Matamu yang coklat keabuan, 

Letak pekat keletihan berabad

Teringat dimana aku sering mengabaikan,

Hal benar yang kau utarakan

Dimana aku sering kalah,

Karena padamu ku sering salah

Dimana akhirnya kita berpisah, dan aku mulai menanti hari itu

Aku mulai meniti jalan ke depan dengan harapan,

Di hari itu aku kembali dipertemukan denganmu,

Kan ku ceritakan padamu tentang mimpi

dimana yang dulu sering kita bagi,

Sudah ku penuhi

Keresahanku menenggelamkanku lagi, ke memori lama itu

Yang menggambarkan tawamu, senyummu, amarahmu, tatapanmu

Menceritakan banyak hal tentangmu

Ayah,

Aku rindu, 

Teramat rindu..

R

"Kau seperti, nyanyian dalam hatiku 

yang memanggil rinduku padamu,

Kau seperti udara yang ku hela,

Kau selalu ada." 

Aku sering berhenti melakukan apa saja yang sedang aku lakukan kalau aku menangkap bola matamu memandang lurus kearahku, sudah lama, dan masih salah tingkah, ingin sekali tidak memamerkan senyum tapi tinggallah bibirku yang tertarik sendiri menyunggingkan senyum, hari itu, adalah kesekian kalinya kita bisa ngumpul berdua setelah beraktivitas sama-sama, di kampus masing-masing, dengan rutinitas masing-masing.

Tentu saja itu dulu, sejak belum sekalipun mempermasalahkan jarak.

Hari itu berbeda ketika kita sangat menikmati apa yang sedang kita lakukan, hamparan biru di depanku dan ada kamu, sudah cukup, aku ingin menikmatinya dengan diam saja tapi bukan aku namanya jika tidak terus mengoceh, kadang kau menyunggingkan senyum atau sesekali tertawa, nonsense, apakah kau berpikir seperti itu?

Aku rindu, pada laut, yang selalu menjadi tempat nomor satu paling sering kita nikmati bersama, dulu, aku tidak pernah tau jika ada orang lain yang memandang gugusan biru itu sama sepertiku, kita sering membicarakan mimpi, masalalu, segala hal, mungkin terdengar garing sekali pada orang lain tapi untukku itu slalu menjadi topik nomor satu, ombak bergulung riang disambut oleh suara mesin kapal yang dihidupkan, pagiku, bersamamu, pernah kita habiskan di tempat itu, sekedar berjalan, melihat biru, lalu bercerita lagi, sekedar menoleh ke belakang, atau aku, yang begitu bersemangat bercerita tentang hal yang akan datang nanti.

Aku selalu dilanda rindu, tentangmu, tentang laut biru, tentang tawa dan canda bersama, tentang perjalanan yang tidak akan ada titik ujungnya, roda-roda yang berputar, membawa kita menyusuri segala tempat yang kita inginkan dan kita mulai bangun cerita baru, di hari itu, di hari yang lainnya. Aku rindu, pada senyum menentramkan nan misterius, tentang tawa lepas yang kadang mengejek, tentangmu, yang selalu ku rindukan, tentang hari yang belum terbenam, kita menikmati panas ataupun hujan.

Tentang kata-kata manis, atau ocehan-ocehan membosankan (yang selalu terbanyak dari aku), rindu ketika kau diam, terkadang panik, terkadang marah.

Rindu, pada kota pertama tempatku mengenal angka, rindu pada Ibu, yang selalu membasuh perih, rindu padamu, yang selalu menentramkan dan mengerti aku.

Hanya itu, hanya aku rindu.

Backstreet Boys' New Album! ~ In A World Like This

"We always want to the top of our previous albums, that's always our objectives." Nick Carter.

And, here's me being surprised of them, they are back! XD

Setelah frustasi patah hati mellownisasi berbulan-bulan gara-gara westlife bubar, beberapa hari ini udah mulai berbunga-bunga lagi abis ngedownload single terbaru bsb, In A World Like This, ini bahasanya udah kayak apaaaaa -___- yes, I'm surprised, malam ini abis ngerepeat lagu itu hampir satu jam, saya rencana mau share beberapa lagu yang saya suka sekali dari album kesembilan mereka (and now the band is turning 20 years old! Same like me -____-), ok, check this out: 

In A World Like This, first single ini ceritanya lagi jatuh cinta lagi setelah patah hati, saya suka musiknya yang ceria banget itu, asli bikin semangat. Enaknya di dengar pas mau tidur (IYA SERIUS) untuk orang yang dengar lagu sesuai mood kayak saya ini, lagu ini cocok buat tidur, instead of lagu-lagu mellow atau instrumen lullaby yang bikin cepet ngantuk, biasanya kalo feelingnya bener pas mau tidur, bangunnya pasti semangat (APAAN SIH!) iya iya bukan survey kok, cuma saya sering aja ngerasa kayak gitu.

Show 'em (What You're Made Of)

"You find the truth in a child's eyes

When the only limit is the sky

Living proof I see myself in you."

Seems a quote I need for now.

Beda sama In A World Like This, Breathe justru mendayu-dayu patah hati, tapi pas pertama dengar saya udah langsung suka, a lil bit reminds me of westlife's songs hehe :)) emang sih, nggak ada yang terlalu beda antara bsb sama westlife, yah, saya ngebayangin shane bakal nyanyi siap intronya -____-

Dan yang terakhir ada Madelaine, kalo westlife punya soledad, bsb punya Madelaine, that was what pops up in my head first time I listened to the song -_____- dengan nggak mau nyamain juga antara kedua lagu tersebut, oke, stop ngomongin westlife!!!! Ini bsb atau westlife sih jadinya (ketauan banget susah move on T.T) oke back to the point, I loveeee the lyric, n the part sitting in the bridge while his madelaine is writing in her notebook hoping one day it would be a story to tell, and she'd put in the movie. :)

Ini list lagu-lagu mereka se album:

1. In A World Like This

2. Permanent Stain

3. Breathe

4. Madelaine

5. Show 'Em (What You're Made Of)

6. Make Believe

7. Try 

8. Trust Me\

9. Love Somebody

10. One Phone Call

11. Feels Like Home

12. Soldier

Saya bukan ahli komentarin musik, but what I saw about this album was epic, atau saya yang udah kangen sekali sama boyband 90-an? FYI, saya emang prefer ke westlife atau bsb dibandingin sama One Direction atau The Wanted, nggak juga sama boyband Korea, Indonesia? :))

"Kenapa sabar itu indah? Karena sabar adalah milik hati..."

Dreams Are Not Enough

You can achieve your dreams, but dream is still dream when you can't back home.

You Keep Me Drowning in Your Love

Don't pretend you're sorry,
I know you're not.
You know you got the power,
To make me weak inside.

And girl you leave me breathless,
But it's ok.
'Cause you are my survival,
Now hear me say.

I can't imagine life without your love.
And even forever don't seem like long enough.

'Cause every time I breathe I take you in,
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it.
You keep me drowning in your love.

And every time I try to rise above,
I'm swept away by love.
Baby I can't help it,
You keep me drowning in your love.

Maybe I'm a drifter, 
Maybe not.
'Cause I have known the safety,
Of falling free into your arms.

I don't need another lifeline,
It's not for me.
It's only you can save me.
Oh, can't you see?

I can't imagine life without your love.
And even forever don't seem like long enough. 
(It don't seem like long enough, yeah) 

'Cause every time I breathe I take you in,
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it.
You keep me drowning in your love.

And every time I try to rise above,
I'm swept away by love.
Baby I can't help it,
You keep me drowning in your love.

Go on pull me under.
Cover me with dreams.
You know I can't resist.
'Cause you're the air that I breathe! 

'Cause every time I breathe I take you in,
(Every time I breathe, yeah)
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it.
(Baby I can't help it)

You keep me drowning in your love.
And every time I try to rise above,
I'm swept away by love.
Baby I can't help it,
You keep me drowning in your loveâ?¦

Baby I can't help it,
You keep me drowning in your love.

Baby drowning.
(Ohâ?¦)
Got me drowning.
Keep me drowning in your love.

Baby I can't help it.
(Can't help it, can't help it no no.)
Got me drowning.

I can't imagine life without your love.
And even forever don't seem like long enough.

'Cause every time I breathe I take you in,
(I do)
And my heart beats again
(Oh yeah)

Baby I can't help it.
(Baby I can't help it)
You keep me drowning in your love.
And every time I try to rise above,

(Got me drowning)
I'm swept away by love.
Baby I can't help it,
You keep me drowning in your love.




I know right, jadul dan saya sejalan...

Stars Appear and Shadows Are Falling

Can we make it as a song of the day? Why can I be like this mellow? Yesterday is a great birthday, love, family, friends, I feel a life more than another birthdays, when I just planned to spend time a whole day for only myself, let's see the backward, or just no, learn it, waste it, get a life on your surrounding, just take it all meaning, life is shorter than you think, live it, love, family, friends, I wonder why sometimes I'm tired and been like that sick.

Mischievous To 19, Turning Away To Life

No word in the very beat of gratitude to God Almighty who has blessed and to protect and endless mercy, thank you for the many life lessons that aim only to train me to explore life, I realize that sometimes less, rarely I understand it, thanks God for always Takin care even takes me everywhere Lately, I learn a lot.

God, thanks to a family that is so nurturing, so understand and teach, thank you for an adorable Dad You introduced me who in heaven now, thank you for giving a Mom who is so hard struggle, thanks to my brother and sister who has always been a good adviser, thank you for coloring the world this by providing nieces whom are so amazing

Thank God for someone who best understands and loves me in, that I love the most too, I feel protected, thanks to great friends, a new lesson every day, thanks for letting me drown in an experience that will educate me as a teacher to teach his students, thanks to protection .

Thank you for providing great life for 19 years, thank you for being so close, I have a lot of wishes, but I know You understand that most everything I need, then draw near me with my dream that has been learned in the pages of the shabby, realize all the things that my Dad wanted me, always, Make it happen all that goods for me.

You know my secret dream exactly, right? Takes me there, give me my way, I enough already, My Lord. :)

P.S: Thank you for every wishes on text, twitter, and facebook, I feel so blessed to have you all, guys :)

Heart's Breathing

Recent song: Boys Like Girls Feat. Taylor Swift-Two is Better Than One

Today's making another 'feel' post and feeling good, huh. the question is why, people guess I'm in love, no, I dont, I have fallen, it took a great fall, it;s cool, it's sweet, it's...different!

Love is some greater things than life which those actually like ghosts, everyone talks but just few have seen, in cases myself is, seen it!