Thank you for choosing us, little girl.
Sometimes, we still had no idea about who we are, how could life brought us this far, then you came around and everything feels fine.
We hope you're happy, we will do everything to make sure you do,
Let's conquer this planet together, baby, let's unite and againts all odds,
We hope you're strong, and you'll be everywhere your dreams leads, and don't be afraid, honey, you can always count on us.
Your mother can't wait to hug you tight, to feel your warmth, remember this, my little munchy, I'm your home, remember when life gets hard, I'm there,
Remember that I have so much love for you, even ones I don't know exsist, they are also for you.

Baby, I owe you for lighten up our home so much nowadays, don't worry, everything is ready when you're here, we just can't wait...


My baby A, 25 weeks on my womb.

T H E W E DD I N G O F

Throwing back to the day we smiled nervously because we got to play dress-up and be the centre of attention, and because it wasn't 'us' at all, but it strange to say because behind the scene we were worked so hard and put our biggest struggle to get the day covered and then we prayed that everything went smooth and fast like a blink of eye so we don't have to suffer more, kinda weird.

The feeling of that day, I wanted to put many Celine Dion love songs, I wanted to go around the beach if I could after the day ended, I wanted to put a long YAIIY in my personal diary (which I didn't write for so long), I didn't know whether it is because I AM SO TIRED, or just excited to enter my new life, which once looked so weird and scary, but it was just theory, because being with you, is probably I am reaching my right path, because everything feels so right, and so genuine, the right feeling of not again regretting my past decision, and you are my happy place, that I can always come whenever I want, but I choose not to leave.

It's crazy how our path crossed, till we choose to wear that fancy dress pretending like we have no idea what happened, because not a little moments in there defined us, and we are relieved everything went well and here are we, ready to share our rest of our lives.

<3 <3 <3

God knows the best for you and when is the best for you to have it.

Suddenly it makes sense better than ever.

Cant stand the fact that Im falling so hard for you.

That every decision made feel so right.

Dear husband to be, 

I wish we met earlier, in the day I fought with myself everyday and how I was just a little mess, that I doubt that you would feel the same, 

I wish I met you when I was just started to renew my life 4 years ago, 

and sometimes I wish I met you when I still played in my yard catching butterflies,

I wish I found you earlier than finding my own self,

That I'm sure I would have been better,

That I wouldn't need to break myself to pieces, to sacrifice more than needed to find what happiness really is,

I wish I knew you first above all, 

This kind of feeling to write at 1:37 a.m

I could never say this straight to you,

I love you more than you know, more than you already believe,

And I'll be with you, accompany you, for the good and the bad, I will always be with you.

H-13 before the wedding. 

Feeling nervous about to wear a dress, a crown, being captured, being a spotlight.

Too much,

But never too worry about being a wife, about marriage life, about things that will come, about us.

And suddenly I understand, I have found the one, my perfect fit, my bestfriend, my missing piece.

I know you barely know my blog and you hate it because I never wrote anything in bahasa, but I'm already so full I can burst. Lets make a perfect team, sayang♡

and so the journey begins

Being accompanied to ride home at 10, while my place is so far from yours, while you got cough and cold and some other illness and brought no sweater, I got super hectic schedule and spent so little time with you, but its ok because you would struggle to make that little time works by having me complaining about everything and there you are always getting my things covered, sing a long westlife songs, fooling around, and having my best laugh for today, then I knew that nothing else in this world matters.


I love you, A. :)

I Do.

finally engaged to the most fun, loving, and caring person, it's magical when everything you aimed comes true, actually, this feels even more than what I aimed, as a nobody, it would be so fussy to hope everything you want in life is granted by God, but God is good, He always do, He granted things that even I forgot to put in prayers, and in a blink, He blows up my entire world.

It's funny because I was so pathetic this early year, my job a lil bit prevented me to look up to other things, I didn't even know when would I start dating again, this feels like so fast even though in fact, it doesn't (I repeated "so fast" like too much, enough to make him upset :D), I didn't even sure what I actually did when he proposed, but I've never been so sure being with a person.

Alhamdulillah,

I hope that everything goes well, can't believe what I've done like I flew somewhere faraway, everything seems so different now, and it's exciting and feel so right. In the end, I hope that we can make a good spouse, an excellent partner, that we will always be there for each other, that no matter how hard our day, we will always getting back on each other arms. 

********

....I wanna put a thick and long YAIIIIIIIYYYYYYY because finally, finally, finallyyyyyyy :')))))

You taught me how to be beyond thankful, beyond blessed, and I wanna spend the rest of my life with you like the very bit of it like in my every heartbeat. God knows I only want you and I cant wait for our day too xx)

Kindness wins, always, and you are the kindest I know. Thank you for being so sure with me.

US, Part 3

I remember that night we were talking about life, tenaagehood, high school life, things we’ve been missing and how far we’ve became,

“Sometimes, I wish I met you earlier.” You said, this felt warmth inside but all I can do is sigh (I’m a pro in hiding what I actually feel and express it somehow different wholefully).

“Despite on everything happened, today is relevant, this is the truth” Me replied, not sure about what I say.

“I don’t know, but sometimes. It’s only what if’s thoughts I couldn’t refuse.”

I was mesmerizing by thoughts about you, I’ve never been felt special in any way, being appreciated, those issues somehow disturbing.

“I don’t think I would feel the same if I ever seen you 7 years ago” randomly, I was wondering what you are thinking, and exactly, you pointed on that.

“Because you’re with a person? High school lover and all stuff?” I know you laughed.

“Nope, because I wasn’t yet at this point of life, what I experienced is different, I might not be the same person you know and you’re kinda pushing me away if you know me.”

Yea, that’s true.

“Lie.” You said, in the middle of the night and lil bit rainy outside, on long phone call and I was on my comfy and warmth bed.

“Hahaha…”

“That’s exactly why I wanted it to.” You said, and then we have long pause,

Then you add,

“I know I’d still like you, I don’t know, I’m just sure about it.”

me, dating at 25, 

"What's your MBTI sign?"

--"What's MBTI?"

"Seriously? You better take the test right now." sending online test link :'))

--"Is it matter?"

"YEASSHH!"

Thank You

Life is too short and meaningless to spend with somebody you're not happy to be with, because really, happiness matters, and also comfortable, is crucial, because, what else do we need than going home in the end of the day, exhausted about life and have someone by our side to talk about...everything, to find our greatest listener, the one who stays.

And then it comes the time for me, to understand line I stated above, when I found him, he is the one who gets me, who listens to me, who cracks better jokes than anyone that gets me laugh till I cry, that you will always say nice stuffs, the one who's slightly putting my needs over his, the one who spend a bit of their busy time just to make sure I am doing okay, the one who, listens to me at 2 am complaining about my own (really like just mine) problem, though he was just got home and need to take a heavy long nap because he has been working a lot for three days and had just little sleep, that I am nothing but jerk sometimes but he accepted it even making his own joke about it, that he never, never even in just once time, trying to change me, he enjoys me with my childishness, me being overthinking, me having opinion about EVERY SINGLE DAMN THING, and do I forgot to mention that he also remember every single little things I said and did? He does, and I've never been feeling super appreciated, and I've never been feeling so sure about this, that I've fallen way too easy this time, toooooooo easy like, a month ago we are still strangers but look, three months after we are already something that is cute, that is perfect.

You really are my accepted prayers, the present God has been prepared just for me, and I kinda wanna be a person that is good for you too, a person whos there to fulfill your needs, a person who you feel understands you  (like how I feel about yourself),  I wanna be somebody you are relying on, that is I got long list about "I wanna be the one who is perfect for you" stuffs but I am just an insecure, pretty much too shy, and too lame, that is how I'm so grateful that you are staying eventhough you are already know my weaknesses, my turn off-point, that you never care about things like that.

I dont know how to express my feeling right now because I'm not a pro, but I hope you know how I'm feeling so grateful to have you by my side, everything feels like, you're worth the wait, and my past, good or bad, seems worth it, that all of my insecurities about this lovelife stuff, all my trust that has been betrayed, is paid off. As you said before, I also wish to meet you earlier so I wouldnt even need to feel those all stuffs, that I would fall in love with you sooner, and I guess my life would have been better. But no, it took a greatest pain to understand happiness, isnt it?

#1

road to this beauty, beauty, beautiful dream...

You.

--"Kadang ya, rasanya 'ini' terlalu cepat"

"Kenapa 'ini' harus terlalu lama?"

********

Pengen dimusiumin banget gaksi🙃

You

"Sometimes I wish I met you earlier."

--Me, exhale, "I think I wouldnt feel the same way if I met you 7 years ago"

"Cause you're with a person?"

--"Because I havent yet at this point of life, that makes me think and role like this, having this mindset."

"Thats exactly why I wanted it to".

*****

Screw pick-up lines, I need more energy boost like this😋

Us. (Part 1)

and so the greatest chapter of life is about to begin...

We are not perfect we'll learn from our mistakes

And as long as it takes I will prove my love to you

I am not scared of the elements I am underprepared

But I am willing

And even better

I get to be the other half of you

[I Choose You -- Sara Bareilles]