I played with hatstag #Adreamer last night and its really fun (follow me @NurulSuciana), because I was rare talking about dream since awaring I'ma away from achieving it, and I *actually dont wanna let any craft crushing then I decided to stop reading even caring of stuffs like that, more philosophiest, I'm just believe something works good on me and me, yaar~ enjoying life 'like this like that, flats, and its even bad hahaha, never stop believing things everyone, pessimist could be surrounding ya then makes you down, I knew so much, but dreams and you, is like a thing works on a way. #Adreamer :D

...don't know how to start this note from, I just (or urgent) need to write, I'm not spending nights to dream all over again anyway, for long time and now realizing it sucks, I was hurt but I'm okay now.

So, if maybe any universities will be impossible and more ridiculous for me, it doesnt mean I have to be quiet believin', I have one life, I live just once, and I'll feel more foolish if something hurt could make me quiet, people will always hurt anyone without seeking what things make 'em so proud of, and I know people not gonna feel this way, yeash, me, and you there who reading this, we are a dreamer okay, we'll always keeping our believes, always hopin' and knew things will earns, dont ya? :))

...and because we'll never give up with greatest things and always kick out the silliness, any smallness that makes any works well done even before it touched, we knew who we are. And never ever been gave up with our soul, honestly, me, with my soul, allright, which it always force things work perfect, its not the first time I said I am a perfectionist, though I didnt finished any perfect things yet, you know I will keepin' though have to live in the jar~

...the tear is didnt create to be immortal, it earns, you have to work hard just bcause there is something waiting for your comes, I guess I've ever been crazy believe about this bcause I'm an uh so well crier, hahah how to say it in english? :p, cengeng, all right, and feel day a day my tears become so cool :p

...anything is, if something seems to be going againts with, try to always share your smile and think fast that the airplane takes off againts the wind, not with it -Henry Ford says. Lol. Its beautiful to believe because quote makers quoting their life, they said what 've been their adventure, so, keep any believes.

I loved so much to lyin' myself consider everything's gonna be okay in a very bad situation, and now realizing how it works to keep me alive, how if I'm not as optimist as that? *thinking*

................

I made this for no reasonable. For God shakes I just remind my life lately, it more sucks than when dreams I couldnt reach, so I believe if my life is created for just hopin' things, I thanks God for it, I'm so much enjoying to live with it, its not things I'll regret after, like I said, its fun!

"look up at the sky, see how big it is, life is like the sky, it's big, there's no time for smallness of small people only for birds to soar..."

-SHAH RUKH KHAN said, ...and and and... I've been making a new row in my dream's list to meet this quote maker, hihi another hindi movie full of corny love stories were full of sickness, its totally different with his movies, isnt it? Please say yes once for this. :p

I made this note for myself, without really hopin' they will read and comment, ...and a little forget how insane mouths will always keepin their way to down me, hey stranger, you should have a look to my personal trash!

I Know You Know You Are Stranger LOL

There's nothing to do, seems so bored, so, here I am, tryin' to twist a word or two, tryin to hold my feeling to not throwing up away cause I'm just mixing by feel excited and bad right now, making another creepy status for someone out there (that I wished to not doing a whole day, but today, I really need it too).

I do comfort to write it on bahasa right now. :))

Maaf kalo agak sedikit curhat (walopun sering tapi tetap aja minta maaf) haha, kali ini saya benar-benar merasa harus menumpahkan semuanya disini. Saya merasa hidup dalam teror, saya merasa di teror, atau sayanya yang sok ngartis? Gatau juga tapi its such a really bad feeling, karena saya tidak pernah merasa mengganggu hidup orang lain, (plis deh, hidup sendiri aja udah segini ruwetnya kapan coba ada waktunya mikirin orang? haha).

Ada seseorang yang merasa terganggu karena saya mungkin dan terus terus saja men-watch saya di facebook, oke, mungkin saya memang agak (atau sangat) autis di facebook. buts its the way I am, hahaha, dan saya sudah terlalu lama santai, tapi kalo sudah melihat pihak yang terlibat itu sebanyak ini, saya nggak tau harus bersikap seperti apa, dan lebih memilih sikap kekanakan untuk update-update di status seperti kalian haha.

Mungkin sebagian orang yang dekat dengan saya tau tentang masalah ini, and hey guys, you know who I am right? Dan mereka pun sebenarnya merenspon tapi kami memang tidak akan se autis itu.

and hey olala, foto ini diambil tadi pagi sebelum ke kampus, editnya di picnik.com visit :))

I'M FLYING!

Well, gonna see the official trailer of TITANIC 3D? I dont wanna swallow the pain because we are not havin any theatres in this town and get a hope to watch it soon, lol, but as people can see, titanic is the most beautiful drama ever, it kicks another cool movies so bad and TITANIC '97 is actually not my period but I'm lovin sssssooo much this movie. lol. I said!

Emang ngeselin sih di Aceh nggak punya bioskop, read this article : fenomena tidak ada bioskop di Aceh dengan alasan yang nggak ada yang tau, penerapan syariat islam dll, tidak ada yang tau, tapi menurut saya jika penerapan syariat islam harus mengorbankan peminat film seperti saya, kenaa tidak bisa melihat atas hal-hal lain yang lebih menyimpang dan banyak sekali terjadi di Aceh hari ini, tentu saja bisa menjadi renungan bagi pemerintah dalam hal ini.

And I dont wanna talk so much about this, mostly lost words :p



Rose: I love you, Jack. 
Jack: Don't you do that, don't say your good-byes. Not yet, do you understand me? 
Rose: I'm so cold. 
Jack: Listen, Rose. You're gonna get out of here, you're gonna go on and you're gonna make lots of babies, and you're gonna watch them grow. You're gonna die an old... an old lady warm in her bed, not here, not this night. Not like this, do you understand me? 
Rose: I can't feel my body. 
Jack: Winning that ticket, Rose, was the best thing that ever happened to me... it brought me to you. And I'm thankful for that, Rose. I'm thankful. You must do me this honor. Promise me you'll survive. That you won't give up, no matter what happens, no matter how hopeless. Promise me now, Rose, and never let go of that promise. 
Rose: I promise. 
Jack: Never let go. 
Rose: I'll never let go, Jack. I'll never let go. 




:')


see this : TITANIC QUOTES

I Love that Dance Titled Ranup Lampuan

You know about this dance? Rasanya nggak mungkin buat yang asli dari Aceh nggak tau tentang tarian ini, and you know, peeps, I love that traditional dance alot, and bet it, saya juga pernah tergabung dalam kelompok tarian ini pasca tsunami, dan dalam minggu ini, saya jadi ngedengerin lagi instrumennya, bahkan repeating :D dan iseng aja sih nyari-nyari tarian ini di youtube, dan pas dapat yah surprise sekali karena tarian ini pernah dipentaskan di Vancouver, Kanada. be salute !!


#VISITACEH

Honetly it Sounds Nice !

This is the first time I hear Avril Featuring Eminem and get feel like this, its cool you have to watch this :))

THE 54th GRAMMY !!!

...more activities I wish I could throw away, but to think and look it back, I'm just cant...

Life seems bored, or it bored everyday? Yeah, kinda.. Lol. But I didnt waste my wishes list away, still hoping, and thats what dreamer's did, right?, I'm doing some job outside, like, teach, yeah I'm teaching, and actually I have no talent on this :p but for liking all my "students", seeing their little and cute faces smiling i aware that i cant be away from that, I actually, so much enjoying that and Thanks a lot to my Almighty Allah SWT for giving a chance like this fun (y)

and  I absolutely watched GRAMMY... and the tribute to Whitney Houston, it was great, and congrats for Adele and the beautiful song "someone like you", actually I'm listening Someone Like You but never get the excited like I listened "Mean" by Taylor Swift, and also, congrats for my lovely sista ever TAYSWIFT for giving this world become so wonderfull with her colourfull songs :))

Someone Like me just could staring and imagine how if I could hold those like You, Adele ;D

Taylor and cast performing "MEAN", I own that video :))

And I just didnt understand with this girl with her power also fashion which they called perfectionist and me, still keeping question like, FOR WHAATT??

:p

I didnt watch this event for several years and got excited for watch this again, and like you guys wanna say, I feel missing one of world's greatest voice ever, she is the one we could be adore by the voice and will absolutely remembered, rest in peace Whitney Houston :))

*****

Hey, do you feel, do you feel me?
Do you feel what I feel too?
Do you need, do you need me?
Do you need me?

You're so beautiful
But that's not why I love you
I'm not sure you know
That the reason I love you

Is you being you, just you
Yeah, the reason I love you
Is all that we've been through
And that's why I love you

I like the way you misbehave
When we get wasted
But that's not why I love you

And how you keep your cool
When I am complicated
But that's not why I love you

(I Love You-Avril Lavigne)

I start love this song so much lately, and feel it was like exactly what I feel, and oh-uh feeling hows true.... ;D

A Happy Ending

It calls when I have found, understand when I try to stand, so I proud because I wasnt giving up when the storm comes and let me-inside dying softly, the reason maybe just because I didnt pay attention to any mutual freak voices whom scream out about how dare or maybe they meant how lucky I am, and now I dont need to looking back and how hard to get your first to people who make you think twice then, but lucky means something when it calls, lucky works when they didnt even scream out loud again and over again, I'm not pretending to be someone else because you still hold my hand even when I'm in crazy scene. 

Silence is Good.

Beberapa hal yang akan kita lakukan untuk menyadari hari-hari itu ada, hari-hari itu pernah dan 'sedang' ada, adalah hanya diam, diam ketika membutuhkan, diam ketika ingin ditemani, diam ketika ingin menostalgiakan dan mencapture gambar-gambar yang telah lewat, diam ketika hati berteriak ingin mengatakan sesuatu.

Hal yang ku ketahui dari segala hal adalah, diam itu akan membebaskanmu dari rasa bersalah atau penyesalan yang kemudian datang, tidak pernah membuatmu kehilangan harimu yang indah, terkadang diam membuktikan bahwa kau jauh mencintainya dari yang patut ia ketahui, diam adalah salah satu cara untuk membuktikan bahwa kau tidak suka mengganggunya, tidak pernah suka ketika ia terganggu.




Let me introduce a new comer in my family, 

Nawal's brother, my niece <3

And I'm morely miss my sweet life with...

'em, ...... Miss you a TON gals :'(

and thats me lately :p

Tapi,
Diam tidak akan membebaskanmu dari sekecamuk pikiran yang membuatmu ingin tau. Life is good :)

Please Let Me End This Mystery

Nothing seems perfect without having a life in a same way with you, thats nice when woke up in the morning and got your beautiful text on the phone, glad seeing your smile whan in the right time we meet, or stuck thinking about you at times, what more fabulous? Well, I dont know what things make you thing I'm the right one for you, but I do, and I love you so much more than you think, QLR :)

For You Who Truly Care About...

Hola December!

Terkadang kita ngerasa pengeeen banget ngebahagiain orang di sekitar kita, kayak ortu, keluarga, temen, pacar atau siapa aja, kita berjuang mati-matian buat dapetin uang sebanyak-banyaknya karena menurut kita, itulah satu-satunya cara buat ngebahagiain mereka, begitukah?

Pada dasarnya, standarisasi kesenangan orang itu beda-beda, ada yang seneng kalo dibeliin ini-itu, atau seneng walau hanya sekedar dikasih perhatian basa-basi yang sebenernya basi abis, apapun, asal perhatian, afterall, karena adanya kesenangan itu makanya muncul orang-orang yang ingin membahagiakan.

Aku nggak punya teori apa-apa soal ini, menurut aku, kalo emang pengen ngebahagiain orang, tolong coba jangan egois!

Ego bakalan ngerusak segala hal, pas keadaan lagi baik-baik trus kita jadi marah-marah nggak jelas, nganggap yang biasa banget jadi gede, sampe bikin lawan bicara kita jadi diem seribu bahasa, well, coba posisi kita dibalik, mungkin orang itu bakal sabar, tapi dia juga manusia yang pengen dingertiin kayak kita, kalo mungkin kita bisa lebih sedikit sabar dan nguasain diri, belajar buat lebih dewasa buat ngadepin suatu hal,  aku orang yang prinsipnya selalu pengen keliatan all was so well walaupun kadang-kadang nggak bisa juga, jadi kita nggak harus ngebawa masalah kita kemana-mana, tempatin masalah itu pada tempatnya, mungkin ketika kalian baca ini kalian bakal ngerasa nggak mungkin bisa bisa juga, tapi, pernah nggak sih mikir buat nyoba?

Cobalah ngejaga perasaan orang ketika sedang berkomunikasi, nggak nyoba buat langsung ber-babibu marahin kalo kita lagi kesel sama dia, kalaupun ada sesuatu yang kita pengen bilang, bilang secara baik-baik, anggap dia juga pengin dihargai kayak kita, walaupun posisi dia itu lagi salaaah banget, ingat, dunia ini berputar loh. 

Lagian, sering banget marah-marah itu juga berdampak buruk bagi psikis seseorang, apalagi buat orang-orang yang suka parno, percaya atau nggak, mereka pasti ada dilingkungan kamu, jadi jangan ngasal banget menghadapi orang, buat mereka seperti layaknya kita ingin diperlakukan seperti apa. Dengan begitu, mereka udah senang dekat-dekat kita, bukan dengan cara berjuang buat kumpulin uang banyak tapi masih sering bikin dia kesel atau nggak nyaman sama kita, its a zero try. Have a nice day :))

P.S : Gonna wish something in this early december? As always, Being always happy with all I had.

A Zero Hope!

@HARVARD : "Harvard had this culture that made me feel that, whoever I was, they believe in me and want me to be succeed"

A little thing, or a big thing in my life is dreams, I'm only a human like any philosophical theory, always believe in dream, I tried, believe in just one or two dreams I could create when I'm young, (not on this period haha), I'm a dreamer since I believe that dream could bring you to the place you want, when I can look away from dream killers, when I believe that "thats not a sin when you can fly away", anything could happen, but I still believe, dream takes nearly everyday with me, it could be nearest and HAPPEN!

They said, I'm not trying so hard, its more good comments than "hey girl, thats not dream, a zero hope!", then sometimes I becoming mad but making a little confession in heart, "its true.", and wish that dream comes when that night I slept, its terrible, I've ever did the worst, the worst then, I'm trying to forget that thing at all and I always look more away to that dream I wish I can be more closer!

*****

Today I read "Rhodes To Success" from you know, the coolest unversity's website, guess what? Oh please just click the link :p

At first I guess I love that university because the place was really really cool, (look at the view!) but its impossible to keep any dream with a reason for almost 5 years I started dreaming it lol, hahaha yeah, I guess I  really want to be there, I really want to be a harvard student with no reasonable! But I know today, its actually not too difficult to reach anything you want but also think about your ability and the thing you look for.

*****

P.S : Heyheyhey, I Miss You so bad, have a little time to just say hi? :p

Having A Coke With You

is even more fun than going to San Sebastian, Irún, Hendaye, Biarritz, Bayonne
or being sick to my stomach on the Travesera de Gracia in Barcelona
partly because in your orange shirt you look like a better happier St. Sebastian
partly because of my love for you, partly because of your love for yoghurt
partly because of the fluorescent orange tulips around the birches
partly because of the secrecy our smiles take on before people and statuary
it is hard to believe when I’m with you that there can be anything as still
as solemn as unpleasantly definitive as statuary when right in front of it
in the warm New York 4 o’clock light we are drifting back and forth
between each other like a tree breathing through its spectacles
and the portrait show seems to have no faces in it at all, just paint
you suddenly wonder why in the world anyone ever did them
I look
at you and I would rather look at you than all the portraits in the world
except possibly for the Polish Rider occasionally and anyway it’s in the Frick
which thank heavens you haven’t gone to yet so we can go together the first time
and the fact that you move so beautifully more or less takes care of Futurism
just as at home I never think of the Nude Descending a Staircase or
at a rehearsal a single drawing of Leonardo or Michelangelo that used to wow me
and what good does all the research of the Impressionists do them
when they never got the right person to stand near the tree when the sun sank
or for that matter Marino Marini when he didn’t pick the rider as carefully
as the horse
it seems they were all cheated of some marvelous experience
which is not going to go wasted on me which is why I am telling you about it


~Frank O'Hara